why

why do people have to let you down? i have high expectations for people, maybe that is why. i treat them the way i would like to be treated, and then they shit on me. constantly. is there any reason why this keeps happening.

am i just a doormat for people to walk on?

when i do voice an opinion, or make a judgement, or (god forbid) say something not nice, people look at me like i am a freak, with another head or something.

it just really pisses me off.

but then again, when it does i don't say anything. i just try and let it go, but then i don't, i internalize it all, and let it eat at me. and it makes my stomach hurt, and my head, and my heart.

i don't like people to treat me like that. but through it all i just smile and take it. and when i finally don't take it anymore, that is when people look at me like wow, what a bitch.

this probably makes no sense, but i have to put it out there, cause if i don't i will bust.

why do the people you want to love you and treat you nice treat you the worst?